50-day writing challenge

It has been 2 years since I last updated my “L’s profile” page and I think it is time to do it, especially when my group of friends copied and pasted this whole list of questions to be shared around.

I guess life is a never-ending cycle of learning and reflection! Looking back at my “30-day writing challenge”, my old Twitter account, the ugly Facebook statuses I wrote I hope nobody would dig up and my old reflection post made me realized how much I have grown, and how imbecile and an irritating brat I was previously. I was shocked by how much I have changed, and maybe started judging my younger self. Nonetheless, it is always good to reflect and the best indicator? Definitely through these thought-provoking questions!

You guys can try them out since the questions are all list here. I highly recommend you to try it because it is worth it. Someday, you might stumble back at this post and reread what you’ve written for the past few months, or even years, and you’ll be surprised by how much change (positively or negatively) you underwent.

Maybe even serve as a reminder to pull you out from the depths of a horror abyss you accidentally fell into.

Without further ado, let us start!

1. What’s one thing that’s happened to you that has made you a stronger person?

2. What’s one thing that’s happened to you in your life that made you feel weak?

3. Where is one place you feel most like yourself?

4. Where is your favorite place to escape to?

5. Who do you think has had the largest influence on the person you are today?

6. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?

7. If you had one day left to live, what would you do first?

8. What decade do you feel you most belong in?

9. Who are you closest to in your family? Why?

10. Who is the one person in this world that knows you best?

11. What is your favorite quality about your best friend?

12. When you were younger what did you think you were going to be when you grew up?

13. If you could identify with one fictional character (from a book, show, or movie) who would it be?

14. Do you easily accept compliments? Or do you hate compliments?

15. Is your favorite attribute about yourself physical or non-physical?

16. What is your favorite physical attribute about yourself?

17. What is your favorite non-physical attribute about yourself?

18. Do you believe in love at first sight?

19. Do you believe in soul mates?

20. How seriously do you take horoscopes?

21. Have you ever been in love? How many times?

22. What makes you fall in love with someone?

23. What does vulnerability mean to you? What has the ability to make you vulnerable?

24. What’s one thing you’re scared to ask a man, but really want to?

25. If you were a man for a day, what would be the first thing you do?

26. What do you find most attractive about each sex?

27. What’s one thing you’d love to learn more about?

28. What is something you’ve never done that you’ve always wanted to do?

29. Why haven’t you done it yet?

30. If money didn’t matter, what would your dream job be?

31. If you had off from work today, what would you do?

32. What was the last thing that made you cry?

33. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

34. What is your favorite memory?

35. What’s the last thing that REALLY embarrassed you?

36. What is your biggest fear?

37. Do you have any regrets? What’s your biggest one?

38. Have you ever broken a law? If you haven’t what is one law you’d love to break?

39. What is the craziest thing you’ve ever done?

40. Would you have a conversation with a stranger?

41. Would you tell a stranger they have toilet paper hanging from their shoe? Or their dress tucked into their underwear? (Or anything else that is embarrassing to be seen in public)?

42. What’s your favorite joke?

43. Are you a dog person or a cat person?

44. If you could be any animal, what animal would you be?

45. What’s one show, movie, or book, you’re embarrassed to admit you enjoy?

46. How do you think your parents would describe you as a child?

47. If you could go back to any age or time of your life, what age or time would it be?

48. What’s something you believe in that not everyone else does?

49. What’s one thing you would say that makes you unique from other people?

50. What is one thing you feel your life is missing?

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I love writing <3

For the first time since many weeks, I am finally sitting down in my own comfort chair, typing furiously away on my keyboard.

I loved this feeling, the feeling of silent expression, the feeling of visualizing your inner thoughts and desires.

Honestly, I missed this feeling. But, I like gratifications more, I extremely adore the sense of accomplishments I have in my life so far. Nonetheless, by being able to share this happiness, I hope you, too, will share that bundle of joy I am carrying now.

First thing first, the flu virus.

Can you imagine how powerful an extremely tiny piece of nucleic acid can have on your body?

Well, I figured that we should do a formal introduction of this friend of Schrödinger’s cat who has baffled scientist for years on where they should be classified under the “Living-Dead” scale.

Let us welcome, the influenza virus!

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This is how the influenza virus looks like under an electron microscope.

On the side note, I realized that I could have copy and pasted images rather than uploading them and then insert it in. 

The influenza virus is an RNA virus which falls under this category called the Orthomyxoviridae viruses. Being infected with this virus is certainly environmentally unfriendly. Look at the number of trees I have killed which each stack of tissue papers discarded into the bin!

In case you are more interested in this virus, you can read more at Wikipedia, which might not be the most credible source, but it provides the basic information you need to know about the devastating effects of this virus.

Anyway, being afflicted by the influenza virus once is bad enough.

Can you imagine being on the winning streak for these viruses and going through the whole array of symptoms associated with this Orthomyxoviridae virus for the second time within an extremely short time frame of 1 week?

Usually, medications such as Phenexpect or Dextromethorphan (for cough) or Polarax (for flu) usually targets symptoms rather than the underlying infection. Your body’s immune system usually triumphs over these Schrödinger’s microorganisms and before you know it, you’re back to normal!

I guess not.

Maybe, I should rest more and replan my study schedule.

Moving on, video edits!

We have two video projects for editing for this semester, one was for communication in a Healthcare setting, whereas the other, is for critical thinking.

Being introduced to Filmora by a kind friend of mine, I have quickly learned how to do more crazy edits on the videos rather than to stick to the basics of Windows Movie Maker. I was so thankful for that change because I totally enjoyed the entire process of video editing, and feeling that enormous sense of satisfaction that derives from knowing you have learned so much, and that the end product is simply splendid.

Once I have finished the last portion of the video (for the critical thinking), I would upload it here and you readers can take a look!

Next, future plans.

This seems to be a huge jump from the previous topic, but structurally, it does not matter.

One day when I was speaking to one of my friends, he asked me a very thought-provoking question: “So what happens after you get into Medical School?”

Of course, I threw up all my goals that were still unachievable because of the bottleneck formed by the admissions team, who decided not to shortlist me into Medicine.

Nevertheless, I shared with him 7 of my goals.

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Okay, apparently the copy and paste function doesn’t work with my snipping tool :\

Wait a minute, I replied him at 2:21am? Wow, how was I still awake at that timing? Haha, you’ll find out in a minute.

Speaking of my goals, I initially wanted to write horror stories. However, somehow I got the idea of doing Medical Horror Stories and have an idea swirling in my head. Maybe I’ll write it out someday when I have more time available! Stay tuned for that 🙂 !

Oh, 2.21am and I’m still awake?

I went over to USS Halloween Horror night on Thursday and my experience there was amazing!

Despite entering USS 30 minutes after the gates were opened, the queue was surprisingly short and I managed to go for all the different haunted houses, unlike last year where I dropped by for 2.

This year, the 5 main haunted houses attractions are Old Changi Hospital, Bodies Work, Hawker Centre Massacre, Witch house, and the Ninetailed fox.

Based on my experiences, I would rate (from the creepiest to the most boring): Bodies Work, Hawker Centre, Old Changi Hospital, Witch House, Ninetailed fox.

You should go down and experience these haunted houses for yourself! They are really amazing except that there was this clown that came out from nowhere who decided to keep following me with his annoying accordion. That scared the hell out of me (so I’m holy now) [pun intended].

The hectic week

Guess what? I have successfully survived the hectic week! The past two weeks were pretty hectic for me since there were 2 skills assessments and there were many project submissions.

One important thing worth highlighting was that one of the skill assessments involved me speaking to a standardized patient (or an actor trained to act like a patient) and elicit his concerns.

I remembered walking into the examination room, handled my result scoring sheet to the examiner and sat down in front of the patient.

The moment I looked up into his eyes, I got the biggest shock of my life! It was the same exact patient I had when I was training! It definitely took me awhile to collect myself from all the excitement from familiarity, but the entire session went well!

I was really glad to be given this opportunity to learn important communication skills within this short 15 minute period.

Firstly, as we were supposed to elicit out major concerns and then prioritized, we were trained to ask: “Do you have any concerns.”

When he said: “No.”

I was dumbfounded. He went on explaining the steps he took and indeed, he was on the right track given that his circumstances that he was newly diagnosed with borderline diabetes.

I tried to elicit out a few more times about his potential concerns but found none. Until I decided to take another approach, but dealing what I have first. Slowly, but surely, I opened up his entire narrative thread and got many concerns that were not raised earlier.

One important thing I learned from this is that story tells you more information you need to know. In any case, always make the person feel comfortable, and once enough trust has been established, he will release his floodgates for his stories.

The next most important thing to know is to dissociate your usual habits during practice.

Why? Take a look at this segment of the conversation I had with the patient.

Me: Okay, everything seems to be good. Before I leave, is there anything else you would like to ask?

Him: Nope, everything is good.

Me: In that case, thank you so much, Mr. Tan.

Him: *Astonished look on his face*

Me: *Initially surprised, then caught what he meant immediately.*

His name was Mr. Lim.

That was a terrible mistake made and that I could have ended off this interview with an extremely good score should I controlled my usual practice of saying “Mr. Tan”.

Still, that was a good experience and exposure!

Weeks later, in fact, just recently, one of my friends told me that my examiner was pretty impressed with my interviewing skills!

That said, she gave me the confidence of aceing my future medical interviews and raises my hopes for getting into medical schools.

Speaking of which, I am faced with a huge dilemma

Currently, Tasmania University is still considering my application to study Medicine in Australia, and by 30th November, I should have a response from them (either rejection or acceptance since this is their 4th round of acceptance).

Having been in NUS for a few months, I was well-adjusted into the school life and liked the various medical programs that the students from NUS Medicine School have to offer.

However, should Tasmania University offer me a placing, I would have to choose to go to Tasmania University(and leave Singapore by late Jan) or to forsake that acceptance and wait until April, when I would know if NUS has shortlisted me for their Medical School.

I am not sure of many chances of getting into NUS medicine school should I reject the offer from Tasmania.

Then again, I have a huge feeling that I will be shortlisted this year, and accepted into the medical school at NUS, and I will do what it takes to make sure I get shortlisted.

If I were to make the same decision between Tasmania University and NUS a year ago, I would have picked Tasmania. But now, things are different and I am contemplating on choosing NUS. This is a huge risk to take, and I do not know if eventually, this sacrifice is going to be worth it.

Most likely, I will place my bets on my 3 U.K. schools and NUS.

Hopefully I do not get proven wrong again by NUS.

With that, I am going to end here and have a good rest.

Life is like a book, write it.

If you ask what life is to me, I would answer:”Life is a story you fill in the empty pages of a book entitled with your name.”

I have been harboring this topic for awhile since yesterday’s incident. To cut the long story short, I nominated someone out of fun in a crowd of the audience, received an adrenaline rush and a surge of dopamine that gave me a sense of accomplishment among my friends. However, I was greeted with a face of disbelief and anger from one of my superior’s bosses. If he was Cyclops from X-MEN, I swear this post, and the subsequent ones, will not be in existence.

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Nonetheless, I was introduced to this whole concept of fun. Growing up, I was a pretty obedient law-abiding kid, and I am still one. Rebellious and defiance were never words of my dictionary, for once I remembered being caned doing something against my parent’s wishes of straying out too far. Plenty of children definitely do something that made parents angry, but some suffer its unforeseeable circumstances. Regardless, these are qualities embedded into the psychological aspect of kids.

Yesterday’s incident definitely gave me a huge wake-up call, on when I should be serious and when can I inject fun. To properly give yesterday’s incident a closure, I did not get into trouble because I was simply ignorant about certain issues. I did, however, apologized to those whom I have upset and asked for forgiveness simply because that was the right thing to do.

I felt so much more alive.

I never expected myself to do something so out of the ordinary, someone who sets to push out against the boundaries of comfort. Yesterday I did, and I had another encounter with discomfort again that night. One of the people I met through an online application wanted to move things forward. I always knew I would end up being asked the question “Do you think we should go into a relationship?” and I ascertained that “Yes” would be the answer.

Then again, I was facing troubles opening up. Be it an old wound from the past that was being revisited, or the fear that I am venturing too deeply into the woods of uncertainty, they stand tall and proud and these obstacles are ones I need to circumvent. Perhaps, the earlier incident jitted me so badly I was confounded.

If I were to reference back to the rhetorical question at the start, I would never regret my actions of the afternoon’s case because I added so much more memories and colors into my book. And definitely, “YES” would follow immediately when the question was popped. Regardless, there is this string from my old personality that reins me back to reality, for we cannot indulge in dreams and fall off the chasm, in reality thinking that we will land on to a bed of roses.

There will always be consequences that we have to be accounted for, to acknowledge of, and to be responsible for. Because life works in this way, you pay for the mistakes and you enjoy the benefits you reap.

If there is something to take away from this seemingly unsatisfying post, make your decisions count and do what is right. Because at the end of the day, if someone is going to read an eulogy of you in your death bed, what are the things you wished to hear?